Dreams and Nightmares

My dreams are so big that they scare me. I’m not your average dream chaser. My ultimate goal is to make my dreams reality. Even as a child, I was star struck. Award shows, fashion shows, talk shows anything with celebrities fascinated me.

After a rough year last year, I made up in my mind in December to push foward  and take flight with my visions. All I can say is 2016 has been absolutely amazing. On stage with Kevin Gates, chatting with Peter at his diner, hanging out with Toya Wright, kids front row at Bryson Tiller (I took a VIP seat for that one ), front row for Fabolous, meeting Cardi B, front row at Summer Jam, Dutchess celebrity event, celebrity bowling tournament… and much more coming soon. It may be small to some but in my first six months I accomplished alot. I can’t forget the amazing prom giveaway and oppurtunity to write for Lets Talk Hip Hop.

I have so much more to do before the close of 2016. My head is so full of ideas its crazy. I’m not just star struck though and wanting to be a celebrity blogger. I have a platform to give back and to uplift women and teenage girls.

God kept me for a reason, I have to fulfill my dream. There was a girl from Cali I met last year when I was going through. We were both faced with the same demon. Gorgeous girl, like model type. We became close, talked, texted, inboxed alot. She would always check on me. Friday morning I woke up, and realized I hadnt talked to her in months. In fact since I got my new phone in April. I went to her IG to send me her my number and saw her last post was on May 9. I looked down at the comments, and it was comment after comment saying RIP. My heart dropped, I couldn’t breathe, I couldnt believe it. A beautiful life gone to soon.

My nightmare is not fulfilling my dream or the work God has set me to do. Failure is the only thing that scares me more than death. I cannot lose…

We all have different dreams and different nightmares. Whoever is reading this I encourage to go after your dream. Dreams and nightmares coincide with each other.  If your dreams dont scare they are not big enough. If you dont have a nightmare, you may not have yet defined your purpose.

I appreciate everyone that has followed keepingupwithkei. If you’re reading this, that means you. I have so much more to come.  This journey called life is amazing. Nemo said it best, no matter what “just keep swimming”.

The sky is the limit and there is an amazing view from the top. I want to meet everyone at the top. Its room for us all.

RIP Tara.. this is post is dedicated to you. Thanks for pushing me even at my weakest point. Im about to put in work now. I Love You.

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Creating Your Own Happily Ever After

“Who wants the perfect love story anyway?”  Beyonce was so right on this verse. The perfect love story is so cliche. 

As little girls we often dream of meeting Prince Charming and getting carried away, living happily ever after. We dream of a husband, couple kids, picket fence and all smiles. Not once do we think of being a baby mama, with a couple baby daddys. Numerous failed relationships and single at 30.

So my fairytale life didn’t go exactly as plan. But its cool, because I realized, Who wants that perfect story? My life was much more exciting then Cinderella ‘s anyway. No glass slipper but I do have lots of Js, Jessica Simsons, even a couple pair of Louboutins. But still no prince…

I had to stop looking for a prince and follow my heart. It led me right to my guy. Someone who came in my life 06, but because of his lifestyle we often traveled in different directions. But we always found our way back to each other. 10 years later, we are back at it. And honestly right now, I am loving every minute. He’s far from Prince Charming, but then again I’m no Cinderella.

I learned to stop looking for a happily ever after, and start creating a happy life. The first step to creating a happy life, is living the life that makes you happy. Society may say you need that corporate 9 to 5 guy who pushes a new Benz to be happy. But your happy may be with that inspiring rapper, that local struggling entrepreneur or even that street legend.

Once you learn in life that your happiness belongs to you, that’s the point where you are close to your happily ever after. Don’t let the world determine your happiness. And dont be so caught up in fairy tales. Because being a baby mama is real, and fairy tales dont warn you about that lol. But being happy is also real.

Cinderella was make believe, so her destiny went as it was written. But we get an oppurtunity to create our own story line. An sadly it may go from happy to a horror story, or horror to happy.  But at the end of the day, its your story. Create your own storyline. Just know that happiness is in the eye of the beholder. You may end up with a Prince Charming, you may end up with a G. Just make sure whoever it is makes you happy.

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